Crime and Punishment...

I have to remember it is not a crime to believe what you wanted to believe, even for years, even if it was not true, even if it was not the reality of the situation.

I keep punishing myself for something I had no control over. I am not being fair to myself.

This is a hard concept for me…and I'm working on changing my thought processes.

I didn't do anything wrong.

That's what it comes down to.

It's hard for me to accept but it is the truth - I've had to hear it from a billion people over and over and over and mull it over and over and over in my head - but this is the truth and I can accept the truth, albeit slower than molasses.

None of this is easy but I have no choice in the matter.

Sigh.